You have a brain in your head, you have feet in your shoes, you can steer yourself in any direction you choose

Today Squirrel and I went to lunch then went for a drive up Spanish Fork canyon
it was so much fun
we talked about life
where we were headed
what we wanted the do
our outlooks on everything (friends, family, jobs)

He always knows what to say
its ALWAYS the perfect thing
he is always there for me
he is my best friend
what would i do without him?

Today i realized that i only need those types of friends in my life. I dont want friends that are flakey and lie. Thats not a friend.

I have so many things i want to do in life.
And i am going to do them.
Just watch.
Its all uphill from here.

I think this tattoo is rad!

Im pretty much in love with that hair color

Can i have my next birthday here? please?

Life is what happens when your busy making other plans

I went for a long walk this morning, it felt so good!
For some reason it got me thinking about Into The Wild.
That is my most favorite movie and book.
It kind of changed my life.
If you haven't read it, you really should.
Sometimes i wish i was out in the middle of nowhere all by myself.

"Find a person who loves you for exactly who you are, good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person worth sticking with" - Juno

311

Last night i went to 311 and sublime.
It was AMAZING.
I am in love with music.
And especially live music.
It feels like the music is apart of you.
You can feel it in your gut.
The beat.
The base.
The words.
Just all of it.
I LOVE IT.
I love all of my friends.
I love my life.
Now....i need to go shower, i danced my a$$ off!

It's better to be envied, than be pitied

If you know me, then you know that i am a very open person about my feelings. All of my friends always know how i feel and what is going on in the my life at the moment because im always blabbing out everything. Sometimes i wish i could keep things in, but i just cant. Sometimes i think its a good thing, but not all the time. I have done alot of thinking, and i think me blogging is great for me. It gets my feelings and thoughts out of my head.
I went to my grandma's with my two sisters, and two nieces these past couple of days, and it was so fun to be with them. My nieces are so cute. I couldnt even imagine my life without them. They make me so happy! My family just makes me happy. What would i ever do without them?
I have had some pretty crazy things happen to me this past week and it has got me thinking alot. I am going to change alot of things about myself, but totally for the better. I need to start using my time wisely and start bettering myself. I can be better than what i am right now. I can do more things for other people and not always just worry about myself. There are so many people out there that have it so much worse than me, but for some reason i think that my problems are much worse than anyone else's and no one will understand what i am going through. But the truth of the matter is, is that i really have NOTHING to be down about. I have everything in life that i need. My biggest worry at the moment is figuring out how i am going to put enough gas in my car to make it to Orem tomorrow. I have never been this broke in my life, but money doesnt mean anything. I will pull out of this and look back and say....wow i learned alot during that period in my life.
Im going to start exercising EVERYDAY, it really is so important to keep you happy and healthy.

This is going to be me one day, ive always wanted a road bike

I LOVE hoods, there is nothing sexier to me than a hot guy wearing a hood :)

There is something about dream catchers that i just cant get enough of

I love her overalls, maybe i should bring those puppies back?

once again, i want long hair.

Im still fly, im sky high, and i dare anybody to try and cut my wings

My whole life i have hated alot of things about myself. How tall i am, how blunt i am, how loud i am, the little freckles on my nose....i could go on and on. But in the last couple of years i have just realized that i have to except myself for who i am. I love that im tall, i love that i am confident enough to tell people what i think. I love the little fat around my belly, haha. It makes me who i am. Everyone is different, and thats the way god wanted it and made it. For the first time in my life, i think i can say I love who i have become. I have gone through alot of things, but i wouldnt take any of them back. I have learned some valuable lessons. Lessons that i know a lot of my friends have not experienced. I wont let anyone break me down. I have gone through these things for a reason. When i do find that guy for me, i must say, he is going to be pretty lucky. The old mari is back. I will take care of him and love him like no other. Im ready for it. Im ready to give my all. This time its different . Im not saying that i am looking for a relationship, but i am saying that when it comes along, i am going to do it the right way.
Who cares what other people think.
Be yourself.
Dress how you want to dress.
And just be who you want to be!

If i could, i would wear a hood 24/7